Being a foster parent is hard. I spent years looking after a child, only to have her removed from my care because of her age. She's almost 18 and they took her from me to get her ready for the world. She's far from ready. But now she doesn't want to talk to me and I don't know why. I feel broken. I've been a mum and now I feel like a nobody... It feels like I'm dying over and over again. Noone can stop this pain.. and noone cares to.