I'm in love with a coworker. Or the idea of him. It got stronger when my bf started hurting me. I can't keep him out of my mind. I think of him no matter where I am and so many things remind me of him despite not knowing him well. I feel selfish for using the idea of him to attach to and make myself feel better with. I have to correct myself when I start thinking he might feel the same. I want him to feel that way so I'm bound to read too much into how I feel he takes care of me.